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03 April 2015

Marriage Prayer Cards



Marriage Prayer Cards

Oh friends, how God stirs my heart and breathes new life, new thoughts and new love into it. How blessed I am that He makes this time for me!
He has been leading me ever so gently to really raise up Joshua in prayer, and to be a huge advocate for marriage. This of course inspired me to research the BEST wifely saints out there. And who did I stumble across but St. Monica! Now most of you will not realize why this is SOOOOO fitting, but this happens to be the name of the church that Joshua and I were raised in and married at! Oh Lord, I see what you did there! So I then set out to read more about her, even though having been raised in a church after her, I already knew a good deal. Most know that St. Monica prayed and prayed, and then she prayed some more, not just for the conversion of her son St. Augustine (again a personal moment for me) but also for her husband St. Patricus! She was certainly a woman of faith, a great example to all wives and mothers. If you want to read more here she is St. Monica. The beautiful thing about praying for a saint isn’t just that they offer intercessions on our behalf but that they have ready made prayers that you can just say over and over until they fall out like the Our Father!
As inspiring as she was, I wasn’t done just yet, I had more praying I needed to do, that when I stumbled across this gem. A truly perfect prayer for any wife! A Wife’s Prayer for Her Husband by the Unveiled Wife! How she took the words right out of my mouth, how much these words longed to leave my lips as a prayer to my Heavenly Father.
So knowing me and knowing how much I LOVE to make printables, I then set out to make pretty little prayer cards for these prayers.



You will need:
Computer and Printer
1 sheets of 8 1/2 x 11 paper
Adobe Reader (If you do not have Adobe Reader, you can download it for free at get.adobe.com/reader)

Save them to your computer, then print out as 4x6 cards!
So there you go, I hope you enjoy these two little prayer cards!


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01 April 2015

Praying the Rosary

https://docs.google.com/file/d/0BwSuzVoF87NwcWU0ejYtUzlMZlU/edit

(Click Here for PDF)
You will need:
Computer and Printer
2 sheets of 8 1/2 x 11 paper
Adobe Reader (If you do not have Adobe Reader, you can download it for free at get.adobe.com/reader)



I wanted to share this PDF with you, because lately I’ve been enjoying the greatness of the Holy Rosary and I wanted to share it with everyone. Hope you enjoy.


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02 March 2014

Giving Dollars

This is the story of how I came up within Giving Dollars! I can't wait to share it with you, but I also want to share the story of Giving Dollars with you.


Giving Dollars

How many of you remember this man from Bruce Almighty? In the beginning of the movie wasn't he just always in the best spot to watch Bruce's demise? Then later on we see him being bullied by some "thugs" and we all know of news reports where the homeless have indeed been targeted in crimes, so our heart opens up a little. Then as the movie comes to a close you see that he is indeed Morgan Freeman's God character.
So this got me thinking and of course, just as I had really felt this speaking to me, Matthew West releases this beautiful song called Do Something and if you haven't heard it, you should go listen (that's why i've provided the link) :)



So now that you've heard that, I want you to focus on specific phrases:

So, I shook my fist at Heaven
Said, “God, why don’t You do something?”
He said, “I did, I created you”


Live like angels of apathy who tell ourselves
It’s alright, “somebody else will do something”


If not us, then who
If not me and you


It’s not enough to do nothing
It’s time for us to do something


Did I make my thoughts clear?? It's not up to the church to do something, you don't have to wait for that money to trickle down. So now it's time to get to the giving dollars.

This plays out the easiest when we talk about the homeless or pan handlers who stand on the side of our street corners and interstates. How often have you looked at them and wondered (especially if you've seen the same person more then once) what they actually spend the money on? How about this thought "they're just too lazy to get a real job." Now I don't know about you but last time I checked, I've had lazy moments too, I've had moments where going to work just didn't seem like a fun thing to do, but I go. But what if you couldn't? What if because of a prior conviction, or a medical reason (ptsd, depression, anxiety, narcolepsy, etc) you could not work? What if you are trying to find a job to feed your children but can't because of the hours you need to work? What then? Well if I had hungry mouths to feed you'd bet your bottom I'd be out on a corner asking for money too. It' beats standing on a corner selling things.

So all I'm asking is the next time you have a spare $1 in your pocket (because really, what can you buy with $1?) and you see a person on the corner, try not to judge them. Just don't judge them.

I'm going to say the obvious thing that a lot of Christians tend to forget, it's not our job to judge. In fact the man we put everything on the line for, calls us desperately to LOVE THEM. He sat with addicts and all manner of hurting people and loved them.
OR
If you can and if you have a way how about you pull over and ask them if they could do some handy work for you? How about instead of judgement over why they can't work a normal job or how lazy they are put your real heart out there, stand the chance that you'll come across someone who's just in it for the money, but offer a job for them.

Let's play the OR game again

I'll contend that some of you will be really against giving them money, and instead would prefer to know it's going to a good place. So everytime you see someone and you have a dollar, tuck it away somewhere special, and then when you've accumlated enough pass it on to the charity of your choice!

Giving Dollars is all about just giving what you might not need to people who might in fact benefit from the $1 mcdonalds drink, candybar, or lottery ticket you might have bought. 



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12 December 2013

Driving Prayers

Some of you might remember my post on Laundry Basket Prayers, and this is going to be a post along the same lines.

I strive in my life to find the Lord in ordinary places. He doesn't just have to have His hand in miracles, the saving of lives and the healing of souls. He's found in the sunset, a child saying Momma, and in simple people loving others.

Over the recent months, it's come to my attention how much I do truly love. I believe deep within me that the Lord knew exactly what he was doing when he gave me a heart for every single person (save child abusers and, well, abusers in general). I love everyone, and believe that message with my whole being, that Our Lord calls us to Love.

So one of the ways that I've found I can LOVE deeply during my daily routine is with Driving Prayers. I'm sure all of us have sat in our car at one point or another, turned off the radio and just let the Lord speak to us, but what about other prayer?

My driving prayer is pretty simple, but I'm floored at how few people I talk to actually do it.

Every time a police car, ambulance or fire truck drives by me, I pray. Lights off, lights on, person in the back of the ambulance, or a cop on his way to arrast someone, I pray. It's not always a long prayer, but mostly it's just "Lord please bless the officer that he may be safe while he protects my community."

We have a special ambulance in Indianapolis, that we see rarely (praise the Lord).  It's a prenatal, newborn ambulance. It's rushing woman to delivery that are high risk and infants to the children's hospital. When I see that ambulance, lights on or not, my heart aches for the family and for the precious life, born or unborn, that needs rushing. Even in the times where no one is in it, you know someone will be and so I pray for them.

This isn't a complicated act, it's as simple as turning on the radio, but what a profound thing to do.  Everyday, cops go to work put their lives on the line for your community.  I don't care if that cop is the biggest jerk in the world and you didn't deserve that ticket or warning.  They don't know who you are or if you've got a shotgun aimed at them when they walk up. In fact, recently I heard that during a pull-over, cops will touch the back of the drivers side of the car to put their finger prints on the vehicle.  In case anything happens, the cops can identify that exact vehicle if necessary. How sad of a world when we don't embrace our law enforcement enough to give them the benefit of the doubt on our safety.  We don't apologize for whatever was perceived to be wrong and thank them for their service to our community. I've never been pulled over, and God willing I won't have to be, but after my accidents and meeting the nicest cops in world I will never look at them the same.

Joshua is one person that I know that does something in his own way.  Whenever we are out of the house (whether it's at the grocery store, out shopping, or even just eating out) he will go up to the officer and shake their hand, thanking them for their service.  I know that not many people are comfortable doing that, I know I'm not.  But what a great model for showing respect to our men and women who serve our community.

So set the example for the next generation to love our public service officials, pray for them each time they cross your path, and say it out loud.
Laura Story's song Blessings has a line that aptly fits this: "What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near"
We can all figure that fireman and an ambulance mostly show up to tragedy, but cops give a thousand sleepless nights, they are blessings too.

07 November 2013

Honestly Transparent Christianity

Some of you may debate with me, question the validity of my statements, argue with me over the morality; your hate, indifference and your derision will only empower and fuel me.


Honestly Transparent Christianity


“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? ... You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye." Matthew 7:3-5

Let me first start with a sin is a sin no matter how big. I have become singularly obsessed with this statement. So let me explain. Some Christians would stand behind an idoligy that dictates that gays and lesbians are going to Hell, and the sins they commit are some of the nastiest there are. So I'll argue from you side of sin for a moment. Are you here to tell me that the church going husband who is addicted to porn and having affairs with other woman is less of a sinner then the lesbian in a commited relationship? You probably stopped your train of thought for a moment at the mere idea that a mere thought of a man going to church could possibly do that to his wife, I don't have first hand experience but I know it's out there. We'll move on step further. Do you condemn the meth addict who steals from his family and friends to supply his drug habit, in the mean time ignoring govermental law which God states is His law (see Romans 13:2-5); so do you view that as a sinner or a man fallen. No maybe you are taking my words to confuse them into me saying that I think gays and lesbians or any sinner is a man fallen and needs to repent. Do NOT misunderstand my intention. My intention is to say that I am NOT Jesus Christ. I am NOT the judge. I am a mere Christian trying to feel my way through what God has planted in my heart. 


"We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen. And this commandment we have from him: whoever loves God must also love his brother." 1 John 4:19-21

If I haven't made my point yet, I won't continue to beat you over the head with it. Just reread and google "What does the bible say about loving others". See what you find.

I have a very hard time saying openly that I'm a Christian. Why you might ask? Do I hate the light of God? Am I ashamed of God? Hell no. I'm ashamed of the people that call themselves Christians and stand behind such hatred and shame. Have you no idea that Jesus Christ laid down His life on a cross as the ULTIMATE sacrifice not just for you and your saved/confirmed soul but for all. Every person that goes to Heaven's gates and says Lord of course I adore you, enters. Our God is selfish and wants us all to Himself, what an amazing thing that we are to be so wanted and yet YOU use His name for your prejudices and hatred. Shame on you for making Christians look like hateful, violent, close-minded fools. God did not sit with the just and righteous, He set with everyone and shamed those who thought themselves better then the average man. Shame on you who don't help the less fortunate, shame on you for not praying for them. You sit in your warm houses and draw a tear for the less fortunate. We are a first world country, we are blessed to have toilet paper something most of us take for granted as a necessity but can you imagine a day when you rubbed raw for grime that you could not clean. Think for a moment who one bathroom visit might go without toilet paper and open your mind up to having none. 

As Christians we are called to cloth the naked, feed the hungry and pray for those who need it. I've been broke for the last 9 months of my life, I haven't been able to spare much. But I spend 10 minutes and sign up for samples for websites and companies and donate those "freebies" to woman's shelters, churches and humane societies. You don't have to have money, donate unwanted clothing and instead of funding a company, spend 5 minutes and call your local woman's shelter. Have your children clean out their toy bin and purge your life to give to others. You don't need much.

What this world really needs is opened eyes. Do you not see that prejudices only cause hatred. We all know the Yoda quote, "“Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.”" but have you really stopped to read it? Fear of the unknown and what the national news broadcasts can be scary. If I listened to the news I'd think everyone in the middle east is out to kill themselves, others and all of them must hate the USA, WRONG! If I listened to the news, I'd know that only strangers take children. FACT: most children are abused and kidnapped by people they know, but that doesn't make national news. Re evaluate what you believe in on a regular basis. When was the last time you looked at someone and judged them. You don't know their story, you don't know what they've been through. When I stand outside Planned Parenthood and hope for a life to be saved, do I assume that everything that goes on in there is a sin in my mind. Nope. I know some girls are there getting contraceptives to prevent abortion. Does this mean I like the company, nope! But I know my views and I'm open to other ideas because I'm not RIGHT! I'm Human and I'm flawed, so next time you assume to be the all - knowing, look in the mirror, pssst you're NOT God. 

17 July 2013

Encouragement: When you feel like giving up

Has giving up ever crossed your mind? Maybe not in the wholly committed sense of I want out of life, but you just throw your hands up and wonder "Why me God? Why me?!"


Encouragement: When you feel like giving up

A few of you that maybe have been following along might know how much I've personally been through in these last few months. So for those that do I beg your pardon as I tell what happened to those that don't. I'm going to refrain for sorid details because it could become a very long story and it's not what this post is about.

In late January as I applied for another job, set a start date, etc I quit my current; only to have that upcoming job change their mind and go in a different direction, so I was jobless. This joblessness threw me into depression, which I'm thankful for my instagram community who supported me, talked with me and encouraged me to seek medical help, which I did. Joshua and I had already planned at the time to move back in with my dad and step-mom (parents for this post), so with a job loss this was an even better plan. The weekend we moved back in was hard, not because my parents are unresonable but my step-mom has Huntington's Disease which is hard on a family and just the general lack of privacy for a young married couple. That same weekend after moving in Joshua got a flat tire on his car and was let go from HIS job! Yeah, oh-vey is right! Fast forward 10, yes TEN days. My grandmother on my mom's side passed away, on the way to the young age of 69. I was incredibly close to her, and this still makes me cry on a regular basis. We're going to do tv magic again and fast forward one more month, still no jobs for Joshua and I, and my grandfather on my dad's side passed away at the AMAZING age of 92! We're thankful for the long life but he is surely missed. By the end of May I had an awesome job interview and a job lined up as a nanny, my trade of choice. One month almost to the day after taking this job I was let go.

So after reading this you might be thinking, "Uh Abbi that WAS NOT a short story!" "Woah!" "Holy Crap!". Truly if I had read it from an outsiders perspective I think I would want to just pour my heart out, but I'm in it, in the muck. In this muck I think of all the people who are struggling worse than I am. My good friend who's marriage is at an end because of a terrible husband; I think of an ig lady who's had FOUR miscarriages, the last one after IVF; the countless woman struggling with infertility on my instagram. My heart breaks for them and that's not even grazing the surface of sorrow in this world right now; it doesn't touch the surface.

So surely I would want to throw in the towel, don't worry I've cried it out to Joshua many a times. That I just want to give up, be with my Lord and be wrapped in his warm embrace (we all know that Heaven is the perfect tempature and the Lord longs to embrace us)! So how can I turn my eyes on God and say "How dare you!" "Why are you doing this to me?" When my heart is screaming, crying, begging to be with him. That I'm not strong enough for this that He has given me!

I could give you countless verses (which I will at the bottom) that have maintained my spirit through this, but I am just me, I'm just flesh and we all know how easy it is to cut flesh, we do it with paper. So when we imagine the frailty of the physical flesh, why don't we also imagine the frailty of the spiritual flesh? Is it any stronger? I think it's much more fragile, much more delicate! So pray when you think of giving up, that nothing on this earth will get better, that your flesh may be made strong like God's armor.

We can all picture what God's armor looks like, it's bright, shiny and thick as dragon scales, but we wear our own armor everyday. Let me tell you that mine is ripped, torn, beaten, dented and bleeding! Only my glorious Lord makes it perfect, beautiful and healed.

What else do I pray for? I pray that whatever trials I come against that I might let God sharpen me, that He may show me the lesson, and that I can pass that wonderful test! I know I say wonderful when in reality I've lost two jobs, two grandparents and countless moments where I wasn't as strong as I should be and I didn't give it all up to Him; but it IS wonderful because two beautiful souls are made perfect because they're with Him. I'm jealous, aren't you?

If you haven't thought that instagram was for you, please rethink about it. I have come to know some amazing Godly woman through this and am so touched by their love everyday!!




"...My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”..." 2 Corinthians 12:9


"Even to your old age and gray hairs
    I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
    I will sustain you and I will rescue you.
Isaiah 46:4

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

And my all time favorite for this season of my life:

" Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. " Romans 12:12 

I want to share this video with you, please listen to it and be encouraged!


28 June 2013

Homemaking vs Fairness

Homemaking vs Fairness


As a woman of today's day and age, I get caught up a lot in what's "fair" and "equal" and what I "deserve". I lose sight sometimes of what God calls me to be. Yeah I give myself up as homemaker, I made the sacrifice to follow my husband, but am I really giving up as much as I could.

As most wives and moms know each day though it can be very similar to another day is also not the same. It presents it's own challenges and it's own triumphs! Right now in my life I feel that most days are more challenging then others, and I've been really caught up with what's "fair" in my marriage lately.

For God is not unjust to forget your work and labor of love which you have shown toward His name.
Hebrews 6:10

Looking at other couples I tend to compare the cover of the book (how the couple looks on the outside) to my own story, and I try to rewrite my story based of their cover. When I see other husbands that diligently pray over their wives and children, I get sad, because Joshua struggles with his faith. I try not to be bitter about it, and it's a daily struggle, but I remind myself that God has His own plans that are far greater than mine. SO when I look at other couples I see this amazing picture of what I want for myself and for my marriage and for my home. It took me a while to realize that that's the picture, that's not the story. Maybe it took him years to learn that, maybe it didn't. Maybe he does that but doesn't appreciate her as much as he should.

With Josh not currently working, I'm looking at others covers and saying that's not fair. So I'm sharing my discontent of not having that story with Josh by demanding that he make things fair in our relationship. I've given him lists of things to get done, and the most common thing on the list is actually things that are errands of the home. They're my JOB! My desires have been to make him work as I worked because I'm working currently as he should be working.

Wow! So I'm actually being unfair. Let me clarify, I believe, personally, that all couples should have chores. I believe husbands do manual things, trash, lawn care (not necessarily gardening), moving big things, etc. While woman do the more common things, the things our husbands would find tedious and might not do. Do I love laundry, NO! However, it's something that I need to do as the wife. Now Josh and I have it equal (there's that word!) I do the laundry (put it in, switch it, dry it, fold) but he hangs and puts away. It'll change when he works full time and I'm officially at home. I do most of the cooking, outside of grilling. I make sure the room looks nice and functions well, because I'm not sure it matters much to Joshua as long as he has a warm bed (love my husband's simplicity for life).

So the moral of all of this is while to society's standards I might being way to submissive in not asking my husband to do more around, if I feel that I already have too much on my plate I have some key things to remember!
  1. I am not a woman of society's standards. I hold myself to a higher standard and am a keeper of my home! This is my job
  2. God will never give me more than I can handle, I hope mom's here this! Even if you feel overwhelmed that you have too much on your plate don't use fairness or equality as your motivation. Still ask your husband to help but make sure your motivations are to be a good keeper of your home!
  3. Don't forget how much you give to your home. Even if you're folding laundry, try the laundry basket prayers; doing dishes, who wants to eat off dirty dishes; or just swallowing the fair idea and realizing that the reward is far greater and it may not be here!

I love all woman who aspire to be proverbs 31 woman!

Would anyone be interested in a bloghop for proverbs 31 woman?



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21 June 2013

Laundry Basket Prayers

So many times had I heard of great ways to bring prayer into your daily life. So many times had I heard about praying over your laundry, but it was not until tonight that I actually did it. What an active way to pray, because you're not praying for God to change someone or some situation that isn't working in your favor.


Laundry Basket Prayer

As I was folding my laundry, Josh and I share laundry duties with him doing the "hanging" and me the folding, I realized how I hadn't talked to God all day. How sad as I'm about to go to bed. I needed a way to rectify the situation and in my mind I was already doing something that honored him by being a homemaker and "tending to the affairs of my home" (Proverbs 31:27).

So as I picked up my husbands socks, let me tell you how much of a thorn they can be, but not for the normal reason that he "leaves them everywhere" no, he has vastly improved from when we were first married and that's he didn't turn them right side out when he took them off, but because of how sweaty they can get I didn't want to touch them so then I had to turn them all right side out as I was balling them up, just a waste of time. Now he's very good at it. Back to the socks, I was holding them in my hand and realized that he wears these socks everyday (clearly not that pair) but I wanted his feet to be blessed in the paths he takes in life. As the next sock came I prayed that his footsteps would be guided on the path towards Our Lord.

As the laundry went on my prayers became so personal, as I know the innermost workings of the struggles of our family as most wives and mothers do. So as my clothing came up, the prayers about body image and weight loss came. As I folded the towel that I dry my hair with, I prayed that I would realize the blessing of my hair as some can not have it. As my jeans came up I prayed that I could learn to be more modest in my dress. My last article of clothing was a jacket that Joshua loves to wear and I prayed that it would not only keep him warm physically but also at times where he doesn't feel loved and filled with warmth emotionally and spiritually that he would know the Lord's love and my love from him.

I know it seems crazy but I know I'm on autopilot when I'm folding laundry and what a great time to spend time with the Lord and bless your family! It's a win win situation!


"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing"
1 Thessalonians 5:16,17

 

21 May 2013

His SUFFICIENT Grace

Oh how great is His grace and love, that I might still have the hope that I do!


My Grace is Sufficient/II Corinthians 12:9

Josh and I have had the BUSIEST last few weeks!! It of course started a few weeks ago with my trip down to Florida to say goodbye to my Gram.
June 2012
Two weeks ago I had my wisdom teeth removed which was an ordeal of it's own accord! The amount of pain I was in on my left side was insane. The right wisdom teeth gave me no issue whatsoever! 
Look at that swelling!
The day after I lost my wisdom teeth, I lost my second grandparent in three weeks. My dad's dad passed away. I couldn't go out to California to say goodbye to him, but I'm so thankful that my dad could!! He was a veteran of both World War II and Korea! I will forever miss him and his laughter. I didn't see him as much as I wish I could have but I loved him tremendously!
Truly blessed he made it to the wedding!

So the week after this happened Josh and I did some major couponing!! The post for that is here.
Our stockpile now!
This past weekend we then headed down to the farm to attend Josh's sister's graduation!! It was such a fun time with family coming in and mostly just relaxing in ways only the farm can provide!!
No pictures with the photographer!!
Gorgeous fishtail braid!!
Puppy pile!!
The View
So we had an amazing time at the farm and plan on heading back this weekend because Josh's brother Mark will be there; he is in the air force and couldn't make it down for the graduation!! I'm hoping to do lots of photography and relaxing while there.

We decided to get the play pool out for Elli yesterday. Needless to say she had fun!!

MUST GET WATER!!


This is how ALL dogs dry off right?

It's been a crazy few weeks. I still don't have a job and neither does Josh so we're hoping that comes soon! But we've managed to not fight, not let this get us down and have a great time with family.

I sit and marvel at God's perfect perfect plan!!

9 "And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities that the power of Christ may rest upon me." II Corinthians 12:9

I am so incapable of managing everything that life can throw at me, I know the devil is trying to win, and I know that my faith, strength and grace are NOT SUFFICIENT! I can't love that I have lost my grandparents. I can't have strength against the money issues and petty things in life. I don't have the grace that allows me to handle all of this and know that God's plan is good. I don't have those, but God does. He makes me CAPABLE. He makes me LOVE. He makes me STRONG. I need nothing else. So I again ask for prayers, and offer myself as a prayer warrior for you. Come to me with you're blessings or sorrows and let me pray along with you!!



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12 March 2013

Forgiveness and Unconditional Love

There comes a point in every marriage where the bonds of your marriage are put to a test. Sometimes the issues can be minor but have built up over time, sometimes they're huge issues that happen over night, but whatever the reason it calls into questions your love and loyalty to the marriage itself. 

08 March 2013

Praying for my Husband

To pray for my husband. This is a really hard concept for me to try, but I also know how very necessary it is. I have a hard time praying at all lately and I need to work on. So I decided to reach down into my inner woman and use a nice little trick to force myself to pray throughout the day. 

The last few days I had been trying really hard to figure out a way to motivate myself to pray. Only to come to the conclusion that there are FEW things in this EARTHLY world that motivate me. So I decided that I would use the most powerful force I have and that's my love for my husband and my need to nurture. I sat down and made a list of all the reasons I need to pray for him, and how I will be nurturing him.

1. It's showing deep love and caring to stop and pray for him.
2. Instead of nagging about a lot of things, I can take it to prayer first so that it allows my heart to soften and so that it will take stress away from him.
3. My hope is that by praying for my husband and not just the many things that grieve me that I can take my sorrow (sometimes) and deep passion for my husband and turn it into deep prayer.
4. My second hope is that my prayers will be heard because I CANNOT nurture his spirit only God can do that and hear my prayers to nurture his soul.

So to stay focused, I pray throughout the day as thoughts come to my head. On the days Josh is off work, I pray that he can enjoy his day and de-stress before he has to go back to work. On his work days, I pray that he can be diligent at his job, not let the world bring him down and that he can remember how great his sacrifice is when he works! 

It's not an easy thing to do, but the benefit is that while I'm already praying for him, I tend to also remember the prayers I need to pray. So until I form good prayer habits, I'm going to use Earthly motivation to my advantage. I found this wonderful image on pinterest which led me to a very wonderfully cute blog!


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I know it seems silly but sometimes when your prayer life might not be where it needs to be, it helps to figure out what will help motivate you.

23 January 2013

What Depression means for me.

So yesterday, I went to the doctor because off and on for the last few months I've been in a funk. Getting Elli and the holidays sure helped to pull me out a little bit, but as soon as life hit a curve ball, those feelings all came back. So I wanted to sit down, as part of therapy and explain what depression feels like to me. 
It's a shameful feeling to tell people that I'm depressed, that I'm just plain sad, that I can't manage it. The more I read about it the more I find it's chemicals, I'm producing to many "sad chemicals" and not enough happy. There are remedies to this, medication, therapy, change in lifestyle and exercise. It's not something I'll suffer with forever, necessarily. It's something that I can work on. 
For me depression has been plagued with thoughts of worthlessness, culminating in wondering why I should even stay on earth. It's hard to say that I've thought so little of myself. At the end of that thought is the faces of the people I love, and no matter how worthless I feel I know they would miss me, that I would create a void. I also know that God doesn't forgive that, that I can't be forgiven for taking my life. Puts the thought to rest really quick. But it still comes up every few days when something is paticularly overwhelming, it's me wanting the quick escape. Among this feeling is the constant feeling that there is no hope, that everything that's going to come up or has happened that it can't be fixed. I become introverted and don't want to talk to people especially over the last few weeks. I've lost interest in things that used to excite me, and it's pretty much like I have ADHD all over again, spending 45 mins on one thing then bored and have to move on, except there isn't enough stuff to do. 
With all of these "mental" symptoms I have had a lot of fatigue and tiredness. So everyday all I want to do is sleep and hope that my problems will just go away while I'm away from the world. And sadly because food is so much of an emotional comfort to me, overeating has become a huge contributor to this. 

I'm lucky through all of this, I have a great husband, who is sooooo supportive and so wonderful because he's there for me. When I need to cry and explain to him I'm sorry for acting crazy I really can't tell you why I'm sad. He's there and he hugs me. That kind of love is the stuff that marriage is there to shoulder. 

I'm on medication, though as the doctor told me it can take 3-4 weeks for it to take effect and me to see an changes. I have an amazing support community on instagram, with 7-8 women coming forward with depression themselves!! It's wonderful to be accepted and understood! I'm so thankful for all the love and that hopefully this funk will be gone soon. 

10 January 2013

Free Printables - God's Names


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09 January 2013

Blind Faith

The title of this blog is well, very obvious but very vague. Recently I've had a nice taste of what having "blind faith" means. My life has literally gone from normal, I know what to expect to in a weeks time I'm moving back to my parents, not living with my husband for TWO months, and starting a new job! WHOA! Hold on let the rest of my body catch up with what's going on!!!!...Yeah I can't catch up so let's continue.

Last week, early on Josh and I began praying, really praying for the first time in awhile. We prayed that God would provide a way, because the way life was going there wasn't much movement. We were stuck, with the apartment, in a place where I couldn't change my hours at work, without additional monies, I couldn't go grocery shopping alone (I know silly, because at least I can go grocery shopping) but mostly I couldn't get out of the job that was making me miserable. I feel like SOMETIMES I have a really GREAT handle on my moods and how I deal with situations, but this job was a whole different world! 

So lets start back up, early last week, we prayed asking God for a sign; contrary to what I grew up to know, that you couldn't ever ask God for a sign, read Judges 6:36 & 37. The story is of Gideon who is asked by God to do stuff (whole bible right) so he says "Pardon me Lord, please don't be mad, but can you make this wool wet but all the ground dry, then I will know that you were here." God does it, but the second night, Gideon asks again, just to be sure, "Please Lord, can you make the ground wet with dew but the fleece dry". So God does it, humoring the soul of His child. 

So Joshua and I asked God for a clear sign, we didn't say what, just that we would beyond a shadow of a doubt KNOW what we needed to do. The hard part of a request like this is it leaves A LOT of room for interpretation. So ONE, yeah you read that right, one day later, I received an email from a very nice woman who has a 4 month old son, wanting to discuss a job. A job, up my alley that I really need. So after a few messages, one of which scared me because I thought I had lost it, we talked again and exchanged numbers to call and have a phone interview. So they called, I talked to her and her husband and I think it went great, we arranged to meet in person the NEXT day! While all of this is going on, she needs a nanny the end of January! THIS MONTH! What do I do?! So Josh and I start our wheels turning, figuring out what to do, how would this work. All of that. We put in the call to my Dad and beg and plead and explain that we could do so much more financially if we go "home". He doesn't hesitate. More a sign that this is totally within God's hands.

Fast forward to last night when we went to meet them, we hit it off. Made a plan to go over Thursday (today is Tuesday) to spend the day and get to know her and baby more! OMG! Okay God, I see the signs. Josh is sitting still questioning (as my wonderful does) but I'm suddenly very aware that I'm okay. I stress and worry a lot, but i'm OKAY. That's really weird I should be going a million miles an hour, freaking out. I even came out and asked at the in face interview if this was set in stone, they said we'll see Thursday, yet today I went into work and quit! WHOA! Where is my stress? 

So I get to the real point, is a lack of stress, blind faith or is it fools hope. Do I have a backup plan? No, not really. Am I scared? No, not really. Do I know God alone will get me through this? ABSOLUTELY! 

I've been praying a lot since this time last week, at every step just begging God, "Lord if this isn't what you want, let me know. Let me know now. Let me turn away at every turn. Lead me down your path." 

Blind faith, not something I thought I would use when the risk is so great. I'm too cautious and truly I have NO clue how He's going to do it, how He's going to make everything work, but I also know he will! 

Another point on the road of YES this is the path. We gave our 60-day notice to the apartment today, they were more concerned about making sure we get out without much trouble, thanking us for giving 60 days, and just generally understanding. I expected anger or dislike for breaking our lease. We got the opposite. 

I think when God makes the path less stressful, allows you to be at peace, then it's His path. His path isn't easy and it's not going to be, but He is giving me peace. 

27 December 2012

Christmas at the Cappels 2012

Christmas this year has been very unique. With Joshua and I both working Christmas day and most of the days leading up to it, it hasn't been a very "festive" time or a time that allowed for our Christmas traditions to flow from us. Though it's been a very wonderful holiday, with lots of joy, it just hasn't been anything like previous years. The thought of not seeing family on Christmas day still makes me sad, and Christmas is over! So Christmas this year has been spread out. 








The most exciting part of this Christmas season has been the new life that has joined us, not a baby, not yet, but the addition of our doggy Elli-Mae Cappel! We got her just one week before Christmas, and though she has given us a fair dose of responsibility she is a joy! She fits in wonderful with Joshua and I, enjoying her play time but truly enjoying sitting and just being. She brings life and movement to our apartment and has helped us meet our neighbors through her barking (oh I'll explain later, maybe)! Overall she really is a joy! 





Starting on Christmas Eve, my dad and step-mom came over and we enjoyed some delicious stuffed shells in lou of your traditional Christmas dinner. We enjoyed exchanging gifts and were very spoiled this year! While over, I shared #grumpycat with him, and we got caught up watching funny animal youtube videos! I have never seen my dad laugh so hard. It's a joy to see him enjoy himself!






Joshua and I have enjoyed all of our presents and lots of movies together. We have enjoyed a LOT of grocery shopping recently. Some due to poor planning on my part, and some due to the free deals we've been getting! 



We paid just TAX and everything in the picture & more!
I've been doing a lot of cooking recently, enjoying recipes like Momma's Cheese Muffins, Creamy Chicken Pot Pie, and LOTS of cookies!

A LOT of decorating for Christmas has gone on, and truly I'm so blessed to have a place to finally put up all my decorations!!








Tomorrow, the rest of the Cappel Clan will be joining us over Josh's birthday! I'm going to fix a taco bar for them on Saturday, and we're just going to enjoy their company!


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